| Location | Ireland |
| Age | 0 |
| Date of Birth | 12/01/2007 |
| Date of Death | 12/01/2007 |
| Visitors | 4,622 since 22/02/2007 |
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Kieran was born at 33 weeks on the 12 January 2007 to myself and my husband Will, he is our third
child.
We found out that I was pregnant at the end of June '06 and we were so happy, our new baby was due
on the 2 March '07. Joseph, our son, would be 4 and a half and Ròisìn, our baby, would be 17
months. I had had an ectopic pregnancy in '03 and had found it very hard to conceive after that. So
for this pregnancy to happen so soon after Ròisìn was brilliant and we were delighted that they
would be so close in age. I felt really well in the first few months. I had no sickness and I was
blooming. And then, at the end of October, my consultant told me that there was very little fluid
around the baby. I was told to go home and rest for 2 weeks and to come back and hopefully the
fluid would be after increasing. At the next appointment the fluid had not increased so I was
referred for an anomaly scan. I was referred to an expert who we saw two weeks later. When I was
25 weeks and 3 days pregnant. He confirmed the worst. Our baby had Potter's Syndrome, he had no
kidneys and was therefore not "compatible with life". I felt like my heart was going to break in
two. How could something like this happen to us. How were we going to be able to bury our baby,
and leave the grave yard?? How would we tell Joseph, our son, that our baby who he couldn't wait
for was going to die?? They also told us that our baby was going to be a girl. So we decided to
call her Annie.
The next few weeks passed in a blur, as we tried to come to terms with what lay ahead of us as well
as trying to explain to Joseph without frightening him. Christmas and the New Year came and went
and then when I was 32 weeks I started feeling like something was going to happen soon. We had all
our arrangements made, I had even baked and frozen cakes for the funeral, we were so prepared. And
then, on the evening of Thursday 11 January I was feeling a bit restless. By 10pm I was having
regular contractions so we decided to go into hosptial. The contractions were not very strong but
as I was only 33 weeks I was afraid that the labour would be fast. We got to the hospital at
midnight and the midwife checked me, I had not dilated at all, but since I was having mild
contractions they decided to keep me and they would probably start me in the morning. We went to
bed and I woke up a couple of hours later, I had 3 pretty bad contractions and then I decided maybe
I should be in the labour ward, I just got in the door when I needed to push and our baby was born
and of course it was a boy, not a girl as we had thought!!.
Kieran was perfect, he looked just like his big brother. He was born at 3.23 am on 12th January
2007. He was 3lb 2ozs. And my one prayer to God had been answered, he was born alive!! He cried,
and opened his eyes. We were able to tell him that we loved him so much and try to cram a lifetime
of hugs and kisses into a few moments. We were laughing and crying at the same time. He was so
perfect. My Aunt lives close to the hospital so she arrived 20 minutes later. The hosptial
chaplain then arrived to baptize Kieran and we held him in the Christening gown that our other
children and me and my sisters and brother all wore. And it was lovely and heartbreaking at the
same time. At 4.25 am, just over an hour after his birth, Kieran died in our arms. It was so
peaceful, he just slipped away. I will treasure that precious hour forever.
Will's sister and my mother and sister all arrived a few minutes after Kieran died, they all got to
hold and cuddle him. And during the whole day all our families came to see us in hosptial. We kept
Kieran with us the whole time until we laid him to rest on Saturday 13 January. The service was
beautiful, we played "Tears in Heaven" and released white baloons as Will and Kierans
godfather/uncle, James, lowered his little coffin into the ground. We told Joseph and Ròisìn that
the baloons would show Kieran the way to heaven, but I think it was as much for my benefit, I didn't
want to see the coffin go into the ground, I was so devistated. I couldn't bear to think that we
would not get to see our baby grow up, take his first step or get to know his big brother and
sister. And Ròisìn is so young she will not remember him.
Kieran is our third child and he will forever be in our hearts.
.
If I could have a lifetime wish
A dream that would come true
I’d pray to God with all my heart
For yesterday and you
A thousand words won’t bring you back
I know because I’ve tried
And neither will a thousand tears
I know because I’ve cried
You’ve left behind my broken heart
And happy Memories too
But we never wanted Memories
We only wanted you.
***********************
There will always be a heartache,
And often silent tears,
But always precious memories
Of the time that you were here.
I hold you close within my heart,
And there you will remain,
To be with me throughout my life.
Until we meet again.
mummy has just messaged me hope i can draw some comfort from her words i know you would have found a freind in ronnie and know you will both be playing together happily complete and free from pain in heavens playground
sleep tight little ones xoxoxo
Dear Kieran,
I think of you every day & treasure the time you spent with us,you were a beautiful baby & your Daddy & Mammy loved you very much,as did your big brother Joseph & sister Roisin.You also have another gorgeous little sister Caoimhe since.I know someday we will all meet you again in Heaven & we send you hugs & kisses until then.
Love Aunty Mary & Raymond
My baby
Kieran I miss you so much, not an hour goes by that you don't pop into my head for some reason or another, just like Joseph, Roisin & Caoimhe. I just wish that like them you would be here & part of everyday family life, rather than our forever baby that we never get to see only in our dreams, memories & photos.
I wish I could go back to the 12 January 2007, the day of your birth, just once, so I could tell you again how much I love you and kiss & hug you. Only this time I wouldn't share you with anyone, I'd be selfish & wouldn't let anyone else come to see you, I would hold you myself for the full time that we had you, those few hours that we had you, have to last a lifetime & I wouldn't let anyone take a second of that time from me.
A part of me struggles each and everyday with the fact that I'm never again going to get to hold you and I can't belive it, it breaks my heart each and every day, over and over. And no matter how many children we have our family will never be complete without you here.
I love you baby, I just wish I could tell YOU....
Äntligen hjärtat!
Har tänkt på dig jätte mycket mitt hjärta! Har inte kunnat komma in på sidan och när jag försökt ändra password så har det bara strulat. Nu har jag bara öppnat ett helt nytt konto med hjälp av din Uncle Olofs email.
Tänker jätte mycket på dig! Det var en konstig känsla att träffa din lilla syster för det var precis som att gå bakåt i tiden när jag satt brevid din mamma och höll i dig. Hon är jätte söt, du kan vara en riktigt stolt storebror.
Hoppas att du har det bra i himlen och tack för att du vakar över alla oss, din små galna släkt här nere på jorden. Tänker på dig varje dag vårat lilla ängla barn.
Älskar dig!!!
Puss
Hi Kieran we all miss you so much. If you were here you would be 20 mths old and probably running around after Joseph and Roisin. Caoimhe is 5 wks today and sometimes I see you in her.
Love you more each day.
Mammy
XXX
Älskar dig!
Hej min lilla ängel, tack för att du vakar över oss alla och håller ett extra öga på morfar. Sänd lite positiva tankar till honom så att han skärper till sig.
Ser fram emot att din mamma och syskon kommer hit i maj men jag önskar att du varit med så att jag kunde få springa runt efter dig i sandlådan. Älskar dig alltid...
Din moster för alltid nu och all evighet.
XXxxxXXX
Happy Easter my honey
Hi love, we all miss you and love you so much. We all wish you were her. Roisin talks about you all the time. We tell her that you are her baby brother but she dosen't understant. She can't figure out where you are. I wish we didn't have to try to make your 2 and half year old sister understand that she is not going to see you for a very long time.
Love you.
Mammy xxx
Thinking of you and your Breautiful son Kieran William
I am just emailing to say that i am thinking of you, i havnt been able to look at your memorial site before, its a beautiful tribute well done. My little girl passed away the 29th of January 2007 so its coming up to her 1st birthday away from home, i am finding it very difficult but i am getting there.
I hope you are all coping ok.
xx.
Happy 1st Birthday in Heaven
Beautiful Kieran, I hope you had a very special birthday in heaven. Thinking of you and your family. xxxx
JUST FOR A MOMENT (cited in A Silent Love)
Our hands have touched, our paths have crossed
A love is gained, a love is lost
Just for a moment I kissed the face
Of an innocent child I can't replace.
Just for a moment a maternal touch
Would say the words that meant so much
A soft caress, the gentle tears
That made those minutes last for years.
Just for a moment, I held your hand
My broken heart in your command
So much to tell you, so little time
Why was we punished, what was the crime?
They took part of me when they took you away
As much as I loved you, you weren't meant to stay
I gave you a hug that for always must last
As facing the future means leaving the past.
Our souls have merged, I live for you
Perhaps I'm living your life too
I will carry on; I can always stand tall
Because just for a moment, I had it all.
Happy Birthday Kieran!
Happy Birthday my nephew!
It´s your first birthday today and tell everybody up there to bring you lots of gifts and a big nice cake!
I have been thinking of you everyday since I held you in my arms today one year ago. Im so happy that I had the chance of meeting you, you always bring a smile to my face!
You will always have a special place in my heart!
I wish you a great Birthday!!
Lots of Love
Uncle Kevin
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